A New Life.

I hAte this feeling

I hate hearing people saying i got a “bright future”. or that my life is happiness and sunshine. I TRY hard to make my life positive and successfull but i ALWAYS LET YOU GUY DOWN…it kills me to kno i get so close n fail..CONSTANTLY.the most depressing feeling..i try to do what i need to do for you but daddys a “LET DOWN”. im sorry boys..i could stare into a mirror and wonder why god gave me blessings when my future aint even together..ive been letting you boys down..if this keeps happening..you dont need to worry about daddy being hurt..ill end this life quicker than it started..im a weak father..im a good for nothing waste of a life , and im not good enough to be loved,cared for, or thought of…

I aint good enough to be worth it

I want slit my throat..

SUICIDE

Im a lost cause..